Here Goes Nothin’

I am about to get into bed and take Saphris for the first time. Other than the name of a stripper, Saphris is the "magic pill" that is supposed to have immediate effects on my brain. First it's supposed to taste TERRIBLE. Then it's supposed to make me sleep for a looooooong time. Then it's supposed to make me feel sane for the first time in forever. 

I am, to say the least, a bit skeptical.

I see this "magic pill" as having three possible outcomes:

OPTION ONE: I wake up CURED! HAPPY! SANE! Trolling through the daisies and feeling fine!

OPTION TWO: I wake up MANIC! PARANOID! SCARED! I call my shrink and it's off to the Bin with me, 911.

OPTION THREE: I wake up. Nothing has changed. 

I'm thinking option three. I've been on so many meds over the years that the thought of anything having an "immediate effect" that's not a strong narcotic? C'mon. I wasn't born yesterday. I will probably wake up tomorrow, feed the cats, smoke a cigarette, and get on the internet, as I do every morning. In fact, no matter what, I'll do that. If there's any outcome at all, even "TIME FOR THE BIN!" I will post it here. And if that happens? If I am crazy?  I'll see y'all in a week or so when they let me out. 

Yeah, I don't know what to think or feel about all this right now. I am entirely ambivalent. 

But you bet your sweet bippy I'll let y'all know tomorrow. No matter what. 

Love ya more than my luggage,

Miss B


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Here Goes Nothin’ — 11 Comments

  1. Good luck to you! My wife started on a very new anti-depressant/mood enhancer and it’s been doing great compared to the crap she’s taken in the past. We’re hoping the combination she’s going on is going to be the miracle we’ve been hoping for.

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