I am about to get into bed and take Saphris for the first time. Other than the name of a stripper, Saphris is the "magic pill" that is supposed to have immediate effects on my brain. First it's supposed to taste TERRIBLE. Then it's supposed to make me sleep for a looooooong time. Then it's supposed to make me feel sane for the first time in forever.
I am, to say the least, a bit skeptical.
I see this "magic pill" as having three possible outcomes:
OPTION ONE: I wake up CURED! HAPPY! SANE! Trolling through the daisies and feeling fine!
OPTION TWO: I wake up MANIC! PARANOID! SCARED! I call my shrink and it's off to the Bin with me, 911.
OPTION THREE: I wake up. Nothing has changed.
I'm thinking option three. I've been on so many meds over the years that the thought of anything having an "immediate effect" that's not a strong narcotic? C'mon. I wasn't born yesterday. I will probably wake up tomorrow, feed the cats, smoke a cigarette, and get on the internet, as I do every morning. In fact, no matter what, I'll do that. If there's any outcome at all, even "TIME FOR THE BIN!" I will post it here. And if that happens? If I am crazy? I'll see y'all in a week or so when they let me out.
Yeah, I don't know what to think or feel about all this right now. I am entirely ambivalent.
But you bet your sweet bippy I'll let y'all know tomorrow. No matter what.
Love ya more than my luggage,